When they ask who hurt you, tell them

[I've been debating whether to share this or not. It's a letter I had to write to my ex. I cannot send it to him because it wouldn't matter, frankly, and might instigate a response that would cause harm. I'm sharing it here as an act of solidarity and voice to all of those who've …

pika pika pikachu

I was doing good for awhile, at just writing poems every time I wanted to complain. So I wouldn’t alienate people. Do you feel alienated when I describe my perception of things? Have my opinions become grotesque and too morose? I'm just scared and writing makes me feel better. I need a hug, truthfully, but …

An OPPORTUNITY To Do Good

Well, I’ve realized that I have not (even remotely) gotten over my anger and confusion about being homeless. This fear drives my episodic parlays into PTSD psychosis. So, just to be clear: My insights into the fine tuning of the Great Mystery, the felt sense of bliss and ecstasy while meditating, the knowing and communion …

it’s just a pen

It feels like I have to wait for a different life in order to attempt to be happy. This one has been dedicated to the overlords. We have little ability to protect one another from the sense of being railroaded, from impending nightmare of one kind or another. Was it always this way or have …

the ouchiest

Can I just say that the kind of day I'm having trying to process some of my most awfulest trauma can be summed up this way: I splurged on a coffee from the coffee shop this morning, ordered a medium, got a medium, got charged for a large, knew I was getting charged for a …

Dear Martin O’Malley

Dear Martin O’Malley: Congratulations. Can I offer some direction? The very first thing you are going to want to do as commissioner of Social Security is disallow its use as a tool for harm. Perhaps a separate work force (and special training) is in order that individuals who have mental health issues, like Veterans and …

inner child stuff – do you have it too

My mom and stepdad used to give me the silent treatment when I offended them in some way. I didn’t know what to do with myself when they ganged up on me in that way. It was usually just days of this form of isolating, shaming punishment, but it felt like it was longer, maybe …

shadow people and the gatekeepers

We use certain terms euphemistically and if we really examined what we were saying, I wonder if we wouldn’t freak the f out. Take for example, the idea of awakening. It is generally presented as a choice some people make. Maybe they’re a bit flighty those people, given to superstition and fanciful ideas. The quirky …

Who am I to (*whispers* have the right to) be me?

It sucks to be rejected by someone that you believe loves you. It hits at our baby wounds, opens them up, confuses our sense of identity and perceived, yet only potential, status and place in the world. Those ideas we had before we realized we were having ideas in the root of our sense of …

when your soulmate is an a hole

A narcissist hopes to create in a person the desperate worship that is limerence. Do you know limerence? It’s an obsessive, compulsive state in which you think, hope, dream you’re going to get something you will never get. It causes a fantasy world in your mind which you feed in order to get the hit …