Fountain Logic

We’re wrong about evolution and by we I mean the people who are certain of it. I got this brain that doesn’t respond well when things aren’t true. It’ll stay there circling and swimming and searching for a component to connect the frayed edge to. If I can find a way for something to be …

Milk Thistle and Memories

I never know if they know. The thing about feeling like you spent half your life cocooned by memories and ideas, programs, projections, the weight of emotions too big to process, desires you can’t imagine coming true and expectations you’ll never meet is that when you finally start pulling out of it, and you see …

The Authors of Quantum Language

Today (yesterday) was such a strange whirlwind of thoughts and memories. I’m beginning to get a little more assurance in my own perception of the world. No one has the answers. There is not a “this is how to human” manual. There is an endless sea, a vast remarkable field of potential, more variables and …

Paradox

We never know where life is going to lead us. I get enthralled with watching it pass. Sometimes I forget myself and things that (might) need to happen and just watch. We don’t minimize the impact of individual experience on collective potential, we just try to protect each other from it. I watched a video …

Opposing Views

There is a field beyond right and wrong… There’s a lot of talk these days about the polarity people are experiencing. How desperate people are to hold rigidly to their beliefs. Doubling down, despite evidence or damage, or common sense. Most people will say, oh that’s because of social media. The retribution is quick and …

Onward and

Sometimes the internet feels like that one friend you have that you sit and listen to thinking that at some point you’re going to get a chance to talk too but you never do. One sided and unfulfilling. Or fulfilling in turn. Or creating the illusion of communication that isn’t real but better than anything …

Dear Reader

I remember when I was a teenager, looking forward to how old I was going to be when the year turned 2000, thinking it was forever away. I turned 26 that year. Life looked so different when I was young. When I was 26, I took a trip to California. I traveled for a couple …

Netflix and now I'm not chill

This is basically a review of Nanette but in my "here's what the emotions it mirrored within me sound like" kind of way. Something’s wrong and I can’t put my finger on it. I think it might be everything. Everything is wrong. I’m angry in that oh, shit, that ain’t pretend anger every body run …

Free Form Christmas Thoughts

Five thousand years and a decade to go Mirror mirror on the wall slashed and burned the mistletoe Heavy heavy the weight against the movement of flow But it’s ok because we’re here now It feels like five thousand years have passed, the last seven have been so dramatic. I don’t know why I decided …

Another Day Another Day

I’d rather not sit here for another day crying by myself. Life in motherhumpin Washington state man, where you fully realize that in order to be sane people very truly need the sun. I thought the Midwest was bad with it’s snow. At least the snow sparkles for awhile when the sun hits it like …