The weather in my soul is weird today. It's like some necessary curtain has been torn and the world has no form, like I've finally decided unbeknownst to me that the world will no longer be what I thought it would be Though it tries, all the vague distractions, have come clear I asked to … Continue reading Random thoughts
You are nothing! There is nothing! It is all made up! I kinda don't care for nondual teachers who take people down this path. It's a bit of an exercise in gaslighting. If it is true that both nothing and everything exist simultaneously, (which must be true if you understand consciousness as primary) even if … Continue reading A note on nonduality
I was contemplating heaven and my friend said what would a child know about heaven? In other words, how could a child know how to create heaven if all they have known - even if they are adults - are the things that have been taught to them. Without time to question and see for … Continue reading How long
Free will is not about the ability to make “choices”, as in, if you can make a choice you have free will. It is about will (which could be conceived of as a self-aware force) being unencumbered by lies and obfuscation and malfeasance so that will operates as intended. Not usurped. Will is the aspect … Continue reading free will, creation and the higher self
The difference between having a friend and having a blog should be pretty obvious. But when I feel especially lonely, I write. It’s like taking a pill to stave off the anxiety. You’re not solving anything, just making yourself forget for a day. Friends, true friends, are hard to come by. This is not a … Continue reading I need friends irl
Will you stop and see the world through my eyes, can you imagine how the color blue makes me feel and enjoy the light on my face as I ponder it this is my religion and always has been, the whys and hows of human pondering where do we feel and what sense is it … Continue reading eternity
Should the goal of spirituality be to not want anything? To clear yourself of any residual connection to a form, an impulse of attraction and repulsion? Life moves. Is that the same thing? Shouldn’t stopping time be the real goal of spirituality? Can you stop time? Isn’t there a place within you that has remained … Continue reading the goal of spirituality
My existential crisis has hit new levels. Today I realized that it’s been eight years since the old me died. According to my calculations, I should be a new person by now. And maybe I am. But this new me also can’t stand the way real life seems to operate and try as I might … Continue reading Morning thoughts go weird sometimes
I’m sitting here watching The Office clips because it seems like an acceptable loop to redo. I’ve rewatched The Office a few times. Whole f*ing thing. Why? Loops, man. Loops, my dude. Because as much as you can pull humanity out of it’s out desire to repeat history, history will still repeat itself. Scattered light … Continue reading on competition and time loops and invisibility
Grace what if we were creatures without a future, a higher trajectory, or a timeline that could be something quite spectacular what if we were only animals destined to continue eating each other’s hearts out, killing each other’s babies, convincing each other the only solution was to brainwash our own conceived and contrived by walls … Continue reading encouragement
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