I know it’s hard to believe but how could I know I loved you if I didn’t know what love was. And I surely didn’t. Some days I worry that I still don’t. If I didn't know I loved you, how could I treat you as any rational being would treat a someone they loved? … Continue reading Dear Soul Mate
So, today is Monday. The grass is a vibrant green. There is moisture in the air because it rained last night and this morning. The earth smells extra-like today. I can hear the wind flow through the leaves of the trees every so often. The electronics are humming again after an early morning outage. I … Continue reading Progress
[I know this word, this idea, became politically charged, but before that and after that, it is also a condition of development from within the realms of human psychology and evolutionary astrology. This is the context for this article.] The hardest part of being spiritually awake-er than before is dealing with all of the assumptions … Continue reading Being Spiritually Awake-er
I had a bit of an epiphany the other day. I guess the tail end of the thing is still making its way through the contours of my mind if I’m honest, which I am. Especially when it comes to insights that might heal more than just me. The epiphany had to do with attempting … Continue reading To Some it is Given?
I’ve been trying to find my dad’s family members. It’s a weird feeling, a burden that is difficult to overcome knowing they’re out there but not connected. I'm closer now, to where most of them live. It's both reassuring and also completely irrelevant. Before I even had a chance to get my feet under me … Continue reading Family
*Content Warning* You know that phrase, Jesus died for your sins? My brain is seeing it differently now. Rather than it being a sacrificial lamb story, I’m seeing it as a logical conclusion. The Christ, the manifest abilities that come with being anointed which any human according to most scriptures has the potential to become … Continue reading Healing Something Yucky
Why does my heart work this way? Full and open and without cover, seeking warmth but never finding the depth that is truly needed. The waking dream. Time moves in slow motion and I pretend not to notice. The Universe winks and I feel compelled to play dumb. I think a word or touch or … Continue reading As my soul speaks
How do we end up afraid of our own selves? To be afraid of yourself is to be afraid of everything. There is the known and the unknown and we ratchet our way through the mire. I wrote a book, a memoir, about my fall into homelessness and the first journey out of it. But … Continue reading New Horizons
The wound of withheld love, aura bursting from pulsing pressure that has no escape there is no you, no body, no touch, no gentle reassurance to receive there is only the forlorn, the sad, the morose moaning measure of forever alone without hope for renewal, a faceless mirror, an abstract meaningless gesture, obscured, distorted my … Continue reading When you are too close to the confines of an aching soul
Isn't it weird to be a creature that will mourn over their own life while still in the middle of living it.