Quick Reminder – let fashion be your savior

Accidentally read a bunch of it's ok to kill people who are yelling because they're yelling while homeless. No one comes into the world "a homeless", they come into the world a baby. A baby human. Utterly vulnerable and unprepared for the society it is placed in. Social constructs and politics decide who gets to …

Personal Update

I’ve been gone for a bit. I had some catastrophes. They weren’t very big catastrophes but because I’ve been on the razor wire edge for so long, it doesn’t take a very strong gust of wind to knock me over. I really tried to take all the catastrophic energy and transorganize it into something useful. …

System lords

I’m just about done reading the third book in a series by Orson Scott Card, this one called GateFather. I had just finished reading his book “Ender’s Game” at about the time I lost my house ten years ago, every one of my belongings, my son’s belongings, the things my mother had stored there. Because …

Day 2

The other day it rained from noon to seven and then it turned to freezing rain and after it did that for a while, it snowed. The roads are pretty crap. I hate it. I was driving my kid to school because they don’t offer school buses here. Cause it’s still the middle ages I …

Captain’s Log

The first year or so of real facebook interaction was awesome. It really felt like holy shit! WE’re going to fix this mess! But it didn’t take long to realize that the people who weren’t financially suffering would not be doing anything to end the suffering of those who were in financial dire straits. And …

in the realm of bad code

I’m always going to be alone with my memories. Adrift in a dimension that time forgot. The paradox of equilibrium. No one knows what they left behind in yesterday’s thought. I’m trying to write poetry. I’m trying to say things in a palatable way. But I’m pretty broken at the moment. And by broken I …

I miss my dog

When my uncle came back from Vietnam, he had really bad PTSD. He couldn’t drive. He would often take me with him on walks to wherever he had to go to buy stuff. Sometimes these were miles and miles. And I was little. So they’ve really stuck in my soul all these years later. (I’m …

and then there was one

The lie there is a big fat one. And also a whole bunch of little ones Cause humans lie. [am I allowed to say lie?] We lie to ourselves and to each other. But I don’t think I’ve ever before been so constantly bombarded with untruths. Whether they are being directed through advertisements posing as …

the white sun of nothing

There is no movement, things have stopped, a complete standstill, there is only the ticking of the clock the clock monitors the lack of movement time is not a thing just a concept that rallies around the edges of the demons holding them to their king but what of the ever last when will the …

Ugh, an essay

The winter is hard. My voice is missing. I want to talk. I want to matter but I am overwhelmed. I am perfectly safe right this moment. I guess. But I see too clearly all of the things that are threatening my feeling of safety and I can’t breathe. Unless I ignore everything and tune …